Dead

It has been a really long time since I wrote any new songs. I can't find the perfect melody, the right lyrics, the at most precise words. I can't find them. I have been getting quite lots of request in songs lately, asking me the write a song base on their stories. Its a honor but, its just not something that can be done immediately. I have a quite difficult time handling my problems lately and usually it would be taken care of after a song is finished made by each one of the problem itself, however now I just can't seem to do that and hence my problems are still not fixed.

I have trying to find a silent and calm spot deep within myself where I hope could be of a help to me when facing countless hardship, but there is no such thing, no such spot of calmness in me. What should I do now? I feel so troubled and so tired of my teenage and improper life. What stupid is that, my life is actually free from those problems who we see lawyers fight for in court everyday or so, its not like that at all. That's what troubles me more, the problem is, I don't even know what my problem is. I just feel unease and its as if something bad is about to happen any minute or something had happen and I might be the cause of it, and someone knows of it while I myself don't.

Help me. Please, make me calm and inspired again.